IT'S NOT ABOUT HOW LONG, IT'S ABOUT THE MOMENTS.

Sometimes I really feel that i've to go hospital for check-up. 

I, think too much. Yeah, MUCH. Anyway, i bet it's not only me doing this. Right? Am i right? I don't want my blog to be this emo, freaking emo shit. But i have no choice. I have to shit this out. I hate me, myself. Omg. I think everyone hates me too? Okay. Start thinking again. Stop, shiying. STOP.

Let's back to everything i feel/felt from last year till now. It's not about why, how, where or when. It's just the matter of time. You don't have the right to say.... "HAIYO, 1year ONLY LAH". Come on, this is me. I take it serious, i take everything very serious. Why not you put your legs in my shoes, and feel it? What if someone tell you that? Come on, think of it how you'll feel. Hurt? If yes, then that's right! It's not because of 1year or what, the thing is when you're in the same environment with him for like 5years lol. Seriously, why can't i choose not to let go? Although i've been trying very hard to let go but it's just hard, ok? Not that i don't want to try or move on. And wait, i will and i know i'll find someone better. Better than him like more than 10times. 

*i'm not saying anyone, but if you did say so this to me. Please, stop.*

He isn't perfect. He isn't handsome. He isn't loyal. So WHAT? Know what? I'm in love with his attitude, consideration? So, shut up. But honestly, i'm slowly letting go everything. I start to accept the fact, the reality of life. Friend, is nothing. Partner, is nothing. And i choose to keep in touch with my close friends, of course my family is my everything. And i love myself more than everyone else, i'm sorry for being selfish. I just have to be selfish, to make sure i'm happy and enjoy my life. Nahhh... That's me, being me. 

I'm trying to move on, anyway. Am very happy with my life now because i have a lot of awesome peepos beside me. My family, my relatives, my close friends. And hey you, please leave me alone. Don't take me for granted. Let's be close friend, that's what i want. See how close we are now? I'm so happy because we are not stranger anymore. We are more than friend but less than a couple. Enjoying my life right now, fuhhhh. Thanks! :)

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P.s, it's not about how long,

it's about the moments.

UP & DOWN.

A letter to me, myself:

I don’t understand how you can smile all day long but cry yourself to sleep at night. How pictures never change but the people in them do. How your best friend can become your worst enemy, or how strange it is when your worst enemy turns into your best friend. How forever turns into a few short months that you’d do almost anything to get back. How you can let go of something you once said you couldn’t live without. How even though you know something is best for you, it just hurts the same. 

How the people who once wanted to spend every second with you, think a few minutes of their time is too much to spare. How people make promises despite knowing how common it is for promises to be broken. How people can erase you from their lives just because it’s easier than working things out.

 It takes courage to grow up and become who you really are.

 Take a step back. Look at yourself. You are human. You are beautiful. you are so beautiful. And you can be anything. You can be everything. Do not hate because someone broke your heart, or because your parents split up or your best friend betrayed you. Do not concern yourself with things you cannot control. Cry when you need to, then let go when it’s time. Don’t hang on to painful memories just because you’re afraid to forget. Let go of things that are in the past. Forget things that aren’t worth remembering. Stop taking things for granted. Stop taking life for granted. Live for something. Live for yourself. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Fall in love. Fall out of love. Do this over and over until you know what it really is to love someone. Question things. Tell people how you really feel. Sleep under the stars. Create. Imagine. Inspire. Share something wonderful. Make something beautiful and then destroy it. Meet new people. Make someone’s day. Follow your dreams. Live your life to its full potential. Just live. Let go of all the horrible things in your life and just live. And one day, when you’re old, look back with no regrets.

 Over thinking ruins you… 

ruins the situation, turns things around, makes you worry, and just makes things worse than it actually is.

Learn to make yourself happy.

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P.s, It’s hard to grow up in a world where you never feel like you’re enough.

MY BITCH, KOYIN'S BIRTHDAY.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KOYIN. You're a great great friend that i've ever known. 

I wish you happy always, stay strong and stay healthy.

We did suprise her before her birthday, it was like super advanced birthday celebration. Because as you know, she's from Penang. Penang lang, cakap hokkien banyak nice. I likey the slangggggg. HAHAHAHAH. Ok, back to topic. After steamboat we went to a cafe, and then we celebrate. And we chit chat chit chat, time fliesssssss. Time to back. And i hope you did enjoy your big big day. 20years old, old enough? *wink* Don't you feel like slapping me? Nahhh. Hand too short, cannot.

You're a kind of person who wouldn't show your emotion on your face. Seriously, i don't know how you do that. But remember, whenever you're down, come to me. I'll be your listener always, never stop. You're one of my bitch, ok close friend in college. We knew each other not that long, but seriously, you're those kind of friend i want and i like. I'm not lesbian, but iloveyou. Heheh.

We, the trio. Never leave you aside, because we love you.

Cheers! Hope you did enjoy your big day and love the present we bought you :)

______

P.s, happy birthday,

my bitch.

LOVELIES IN THE HOUSE.

 

Back to blog. 

It's been long time i never blog about my life.

Here we back to this place :)

That day, our chef of the day, Crystal.

She is seriously good in cooking. 

Omg. Butter milk chicken, always in my mind.

Thank you, my bitch.

 

Fuck you, bitch. 

Classes without you, i hate you.

But we'll wait you come back to us. Nyehehe!

Know what, although we have not much time spend with each other.

But we'll at least meet once or twice in a week.

We rock, the trio.

I love you all, my bitches!

And now we have another two peepos to join with.

They're awesome, i tell you.

They will never fail to make me smile or laugh. 

Omg. I just can't stop laughing whenever i'm with the two new guys.

HAHAHAHAH. Thanks for everything.

__________

P.s, enjoy everything in life!

好朋友的祝福

First of all, i'm sorry for ignoring you so long.

I've not been here like few months? I think.

I'm sorry, my lil blog.

I'm back to my college again, like finally!

Met up all the girls, and i feel like ohhh how i miss you all.

I hate one of my close friend in foundation, Crystal.

She's not coming back this intake with us. 

Oh i hate you, as if you can see. HAHAHAHA.

Back to my topic, for him.
It's been so long time, you're still on my mind.

Seriously, i'm sorry for not letting you go, until now.

I heard there's something wrong with you right now, sorry.

I hope you're alright, and i guess yea, you'll be alright for sure.

The moment when i heard that 'lil thing'... I'm actually happy.

I don't show because i know i shouldn't be happy. LOL

Remember, i'm always be right here.

Right here waiting for you to come back, if you want.

I regret for everything i've done to you, sorry.

I really want you back so badly, as if i can.

There's always a limit, i must stop myself.

They called me silly, but i said i'm not a playgirl. 

I'm not like them, easy to let go everything.

Sorry, i love you.

The picture up there, memories.  

I wish you can find your true angel, in the future.

Good luck, Mr Silly.

_________

Another emo night, with the songs.

WONDERFUL MEMORIES IN 2012

 

 Hidden in the attic,
all the way upstairs,
is something very special,
that I would like to share.

My hopes,
my dreams,
old photographs,
of good times and bad times that make me laugh.

The joy of a hug,
the thrill of a kiss,
leaves me to remember the pure, simple bliss.

I cry for the fun,
and giggle for the pain,
I enjoyed the good life I was able to maintain.

The thoughts and wishes,
they all stay with me,
all of these contained in my book of memories.

  

The 4D Gang

Thanks for forgiving me if I did mistake.

Thanks for always being there for me.

Thanks for giving me a good memories in 2012.

No matter how far we are apart from each other.

Our heart, always remain the same.

  

I wonder, 

What if my life without you all?

How will it be? I guess it will be worst.

Thanks for everything, 4D. 

Love you all, everyone of you. 

Let's go for more trip and leave more memories together.

  

The Trio. My Bitches. My Lovely Girls.

ShiYing (Me), Crystal Loo and Koyin Lau.

Without you all, I guess my college life won't be that colorful.

Thanks for tolerate with my patterns. 

Thanks for being there for me.

Thanks for caring me.

Thanks for sharing your happiness and unhappiness with me.

Thanks for everything. Everything. 

Foundation has already ended. 

Next year, degree year. 

I wonder will we still together how we used to close in foundation year or not.

I hope we will still and remains the same till we die. HA HA.

Koyin's hometown is at Penang;

Crystal's at Puchong;

My hometown is at Banting.

No matter how far we are, we'll stay together. 

Let's hang out more often and trip when we are free.

Love you girls so much, so so much! :)

My Lovelies.

Jen, Kim, Janice, Lysha, Marie, Crystal, Koyin and me.

 (Lysha is not in this photo, asshole) :D

Hey girls, I love you all no matter what happen.

Thanks for giving me such a nice memories in 2012.

Without you all, my college life won't be that colorful too.

I remember how we met up, it's nice and funny.

Our umbrella meet up, everyday. HAHAHAHA.

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What is friendships?

Friendship is wonderful, 

and much ink has been spilled in citing the virtues of having friends. 

That's not to say friendship is easy, though. 

It demands time and effort, 

it requires that people put someone other than themselves first sometimes. 

But in exchange for that work, 

a friend can provide an immense amount of support 

and comfort in good times and in bad.

Thanks for everything, peepos. 

Love you all to the max! :)

________

P.S,

Memories in 2012.